fourth

My love is long gone
Never to return
I know that they’re out there
but it’s not my bridge to burn

I wish that things were different
Who doesn’t hold regrets?
I hold mistakes too dearly
They sprout and root in my chest
Splitting cracks in my foundation
Filling heart and head and breast

I miss you like September
It’s meaningless and bleak
Yet tightly I still hold on
I can never seem to speak
the hurt that sticks inside me
My resolve is quick to creak
and crumble and
break

poem 5

Swim back to the surface
young man, you aren’t allowed to drown
Your work here isn’t finished yet
Your head, it bears no crown
Fear festers deep inside of you
In blood, in bones, in teeth
But it’s grip on you is not complete
Despite the fact it brings you grief